Fake Females

If you thought this was going to be a post about fake females you thought wrong! Mwhahaha! Then again I don't blame you though it is in the title. It would have been juicy though!

I lured you in *creepy smile*
Anyways here's a fun fact to leave you with. You eat at least six spiders every year in your sleep. Don't worry they're really small.

I won't leave you hanging, here's a lovely article about female friends.
(Beware it's VERY crude)

The Woman Code

On Repeat: My Morning Jacket

My Mourning Jacket

I was watching American Dad (American Dad: My Morning Straightjacket) the other day and they featured this band! Their songs have been on repeat on my ipod ever since. I can't believe I haven't discover them sooner!

Check them out!

Wordless Chorus





















I'm Amazed

Finding Self

Just wondering...

Can we ever stop finding ourselves? I can say at eighteen years old I'm finding myself, but can I still say that at 40. When does it stop being a reason and start to become an excuse? What does the phrase even mean? Is it finding out our likes and our dislikes? Or finding our purpose in life? Is it knowing ourselves? Knowing what we stand for, our morals and our beliefs. Is it all the above? If so then we can never stop searching. How would I know if I have a distaste for something if I've never tried it. How would I know what kind of morals I have if I haven't been asked or tested ? Do we ever stop and say I've had enough? Is there a great moment in our lives when you say to yourself "I have found myself".

I am confident to state I know who I am. I am confident to argue my beliefs and not be swayed by  people's opinions. But I can't say I have discovered the kind of person I am. I'm unsure. As in i'm not sure what my purpose is, not too sure what I want to be in the future, what makes me happy, likes/dislikes etc. Maybe they are two different things very closely related and interlinked, but still different none the less. But I'm not too sure you can have one without the other. Self contradiction

The image above with the quote from Thoreau got me thinking. Aren't we all born lost? Looking for answers to explain why things are the way they are? I don't mean, the big questions such as, what is the meaning of life? Or How did the universe begin? And all that jazz. What I mean is why did they deserve (insert said prize or award) and I didn't? Why is she/he more popular than me? Why is he/she so successful? As we ask these questions; we look inwards and if your like me, you become a self critic. Sometimes good for oneself but sometimes bad.  My point is we are all lost, some a lot, some a little but each one of us searching maybe not overtly or consciously but we are all doing it. I just wonder what it is I'm we searching for...

Part two to come soon...

Thoughts of today
Angela xxx

When is the last time you prayed?

I am a lady of faith. I should pray everyday twice a day or more. I should, but I don't. It's not something that is a requirement. Rules that I have to follow or a religious practice. People do what works for them and that varies from christian to christian. But I believe having consistent communication with my Father is a must. How else can I have a good and healthy relationship with Him? If we don't talk, if I'm not in his presence daily.

I have to raise my hand and plead guilty for not doing this. I am not going to talk for all people, but if you find  yourself in agreement or have some things in common then this probably applies to some of you.

Praying is personal, no-one can tell you there is a set way to pray. I mean, sure there are ways to pray and guidelines and such, but no-one can put words in your mouth. You have to believe what your saying and it has to be genuine. Just a simple "thank You for waking me up" can easily be an empty prayer. It becomes such a part of your routine that you completely forget the reason why you're saying it. My point is, I feel guilty when I pray an empty prayer, it is so easy to do. You mumble words monotonously, forming sentences that make a model prayer, doing what is expected of you, but not really doing it FOR you. For God. I've fallen into this trap many a time and I'm learning I should just not pray at that particular time because it's wasted efforts and I'm not giving God my all.

Maybe I'm just making up excuses, if I really wanted to pray, then I would. Right? I shouldn't stop praying because I don't feel like it. We should be prayerful in and out of season.

When was the last time I prayed? Sunday. When was the last time you prayed? Someone said to me "if you really wanted to do something you would do it, if it means that much to you". At first I got angry because I knew what they said was true and it wasn't something I wanted to hear at that particular time. But then I got thinking about it and I realised how many different aspects I could apply this to. One of them is prayer. Ultimately in the end, there is no excuse. You can't tell God, "I had no time, I was busy".  Time should be made for prayer. Another reason I don't pray is because I put it off even when I have nothing planned for the whole day! You need to connect with God. How can you claim to be a christian and not know who you serve. It's like claiming your BFFs with someone you've only just spoken to twice!

There really is no excuse, but you know I'm trying. Are you? I've addressed the problem. Scratch that, God has shown me where i'm slacking.  Now it's time to fix it. Will you?


Food for thought..
Angela xx

Mistakes

You learn from your mistakes. A saying everyone knows. A saying you tell yourself to compensate for the things you've done to yourself or to others.

I tell myself this all the time. Learning from ones mistake is a way to grow, to move forward in life. But how many mistakes does a girl have to make! Sometimes I see it as momentary sacrifice. Why? Because you have to let go of the happiness or some sort of bliss, or just simple contentment of life to endure the heartbreak, anger, disappointment or anything that brings a negative mood to your once content life. We have to live through this momentary discomfort. This sometimes angers me, why do we have to go through all this?! Only to learn not to do these actions again. I'm not saying it's a deliberate sacrifice or something we choose to do. But it is still a sacrifice none the less, as we are letting go of something else to gain; in the end what 'should' be a learning curve.

I wish we didn't have to make mistakes, especially the ones we never foresee coming. There are some actions we make knowing there may be some sort of consequence (minor or major) but convince ourselves it may never come. But then again would these be mistakes? Because mistakes are things we do without knowing that it is wrong...

Anyways, there are some mistakes that hurt you bad, and it hurts you so deep, you end up filled with regret. You feel disappointed and betrayed. I, myself as I said once before get angry for the feeling that I'm feeling. Wishing it would go away but it doesn't.

Why can't we just live a perfect life? Where we make no mistakes but we see everything before that comes our way.

Ramble of the day
Angela xxx